Being Human

It is ironic to think that when I first started this blog, I was desperate for growth, excitement, and most importantly security. Security of passion for the most part. Back then, I was confident that in about a years time, I would be the person I was meant to be, with that, my career, passions, and hobbies would be set in stone.

I am here now, seven months after my first blog post and I have not tapped into my most secure self. In fact, in the next several months, I will be living out of my suitcase up until I settle down in LA for the next four years attending school. I will not have a home base, or any materialistic token that indicates security up until LA. Likely, these next few months will be full of adventure and the unknown. I could be engulfed by emotions that ride high and low or maybe it may just ride high (I sure do hope for this)- but life is unpredictable. My mere future is a plan, a facade of what might create my most secure self. But what is life without movement and malleability? Now seven months into public reflection and being vulnerable with my thoughts, I realized I don’t need a future set in stone. What I need is daily curiosity and that will absolutely be aroused with what I will be doing in the next few months, next four years, and for my entire life.

The first post grad chapter of my life is coming to a close. I am about to end my 2 year clinical research position at Boston Children’s Hospital and embark on a journey that will be full of unchartered territory. After I leave Boston, I will not be working under an employer full time, ever again. Writing that out just now was frightening yet tantalizing. My plan is to open up a private practice after acupuncture and oriental medicine school, and heck, what do I know about entrepreneurship. I have only studied the sciences my entire life, but I am confident things will turn out the way they are supposed to be.

The point of my frenzied ramble is to show you that I am a human being, just like you. I am human because I encompass the drastic and subtle. I am human because of my desire to fixate toward societal norms but also my fervor to break free from them. I am human because I crave the natural instinct of attachments. I am human because I am constantly searching for my purpose in life and my purpose just to be.

My next few blog posts will be more tangible, and less haphazard like this one. I would love to share with you guys my travels to:

✧Belize
✧Cambodia
✧Hong Kong
✧Bali
✧Vermont
✧DC
✧Virginia
✧Alabama
✧New Orleans
✧Texas
✧New Mexico
✧Colorado
✧Nevada
✧Utah
✧California

I apologize for this ramble and hope you look out for my soon to be uploaded travel posts.

Love always,

Feli